Hope on. Journey on.

Spencer and I love General Conference. I will be honest, I think my love all started because my birthday falls around October General Conference and as I was growing up, my whole family (aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents) would spend that weekend of General Conference at our home. To me, it was family time gathered around the television feeling the spirit. Now that I'm married, I still feel the same way; however, I wasn't able to watch a session because I needed a nap before work. Today, Spencer and I went back and read what we missed and one caught our attention and I'll be honest, I cried!! "Lord, I Believe" By Jeffrey R. Holland is exactly what Spencer and I needed at exactly this time in our lives. The story of the man with the afflicted son really touched my heart and the part that says "We will be grateful for anything - partial blessing, a glimmer of hope...really touched close to home. I have prayed for something similar and this is where my testimony has strengthened, this is where my tender mercies happen. My prayers are answered and my hope is restored. The adoption process hasn't been the easiest and waiting for our little one to join our family is definitely hard. It's hard for me to talk about because I feel I can never put it in the exact words. I was speaking with my best friend yesterday who adopted a sweet little girl and we both got emotional because we both understand the pain. She said it perfectly when she said it's the unknown. It definitely is. I don't know what the future holds for Spencer and I and that is where our faith comes into play. That is where we need to believe. Besides Spencer, my mom hears me break down more than anyone and my mom is our ROCK! Just yesterday she texted me these: "I pray every day for you and I know a miracle will be in your arms soon. Love you so much!!!!!!!","Well I just know it will happen soon. I have FAITH!!!" Then today I told her about this talk and she replied with, "Oh Jess, Patti emailed that to me yesterday. I know I loved it and its so TRUE!!" My mom is constantly telling us to not doubt and to have faith...moms sure do know best. I am so grateful we had an opportunity to listen to this General Conference. I had such a strong feeling that there was a talk that we needed to hear and I'm glad we had that opportunity. Spencer and I are going to continue to hope on and journey on :)