From Jessica's Mom

Through the years, I have come to believe that Jessica and Spencer have become soul mates, and I know through this time of tribulation in their life, finding out that they couldn't have children of their own has brought them closer together rather than tearing them apart, and that alone, I think makes them great candidates for parenthood. This has shown me that they will stay together through thick and thin and in todays world that is a rare thing!

Jessica and Spencer have so much love to give, it breaks my heart, to see them with their nieces and nephews, who love them dearly and love to spend time with them. Jess and Spencer spend as much time with them as they possibly can. When they come to the family parties, the kids just run to them and cling to them when they have to leave.

Jess and Spencer have a beautiful home and both have great jobs.  Jessica is a Nurse and Spencer works with Christensen Heating and Electric and is continuing his education. They are financially very capable of taking care of children. Being a Mom myself, and if I had to place a child for adoption, for the child's best interest, Jess and Spencer would be my first choice. They have already worked it out with their work schedule, that one of them would be with the baby all the time. But they have many family members that would love to be able to watch Halford Jr.

I can promise that this baby, that I call Halford Jr. ( Not knowing whether the baby will be a boy or girl) will be LOVED, and brought up to be a great human being, with character, morals and integrity, because these are the traits that they have.

I watched Jessica and Spencer with their little Shih tzu, Paysley. She was almost 5 when they found out that she had kidney failure and they did everything in their power for little Paysley, and when there was nothing left to do for her, but let her go peacefully, they took her to be laid to rest and buried her in their backyard. My heart broke for them, they loved that sweet little dog with all their heart, and they were also going through the pain of finding out they couldn't have children of their own.

One thing I know about Jess and Spencer, when they are blessed with Little Halford Jr., that this baby will be the most Blessed and Loved Baby in the world.

I know it is only a matter of time that Jess and Spencer will be blessed with this child. And I pray everyday that it is soon. We know it's in God's hands, and we are patient because we know it will happen.

Family and Friends Sharing...

Throughout our blog, we will have friends and family share a little bit about us and feature their pictures. This will help everyone get to know us from others eyes and to know our friends and family better. We are looking forward to it and hope you enjoy!!

This guy...

I have been thinking a lot about this guy...nothing new, right? This time I wanted to share. Share what I have been thinking all along, but just could never put into words because it runs so deep, so I hope this time I can :) 

My heart hurts not seeing this guy as a father. He is the most compassionate man I have ever seen. It doesn't matter where we are, he is looking to serve someone and I love that about him! I have several stories about this...from walking into Home Depot and him seeing a guy struggling to put a BBQ grill into his truck across the parking lot and I see Spencer run over there to help, to him seeing our neighbor's son scream bloody murder running by our house because he had a sliver and Spencer ran up to him and pulled it out, to many stories of him always stopping when someone has car problems. He is beyond amazing! But, it's more than that...I see him ache to be a father and that is hard, very hard to see. He is amazing to me as a husband. He takes such good care of me. He went out of town last week because he is now apart of the Young Men's in our ward and they went on their High Adventure trip and he made sure I was very well taken care of while he was gone. He is a genuine guy. I'll be honest, I don't see it often. I like to watch how guys treat their wives and I have seen very few treat them the way Spencer treats me. We are more than husband and wife, we are best friends! Our journey has definitely drawn us closer to one another. He is also so good to our dogs and loves them so much. He also loves our nieces and nephews and loves being apart of their lives. My sister will send me fun pics and videos of her kids and Spence got after her for not sending them to him, haha, he loves them and loves when we get to spend time with them! It's fun talking baby stuff to Spencer! He gets so excited! His eyes light up when he tells me he bought something or he has a good idea for a nursery. This guy is meant to be a dad :) He's meant to play sports with his children and attend their activities. He'll be front row or cheering on the sidelines! I am very proud to say he's my husband and more proud to say he will be the father of my children because this guy, once again, is beyond amazing!!

Happy Birthmother's Day!!

Happy Birthmother's day!! We hope you have an amazing day and hope you know what angels you are to so many adoptive families :)

Hope on. Journey on.

Spencer and I love General Conference. I will be honest, I think my love all started because my birthday falls around October General Conference and as I was growing up, my whole family (aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents) would spend that weekend of General Conference at our home. To me, it was family time gathered around the television feeling the spirit. Now that I'm married, I still feel the same way; however, I wasn't able to watch a session because I needed a nap before work. Today, Spencer and I went back and read what we missed and one caught our attention and I'll be honest, I cried!! "Lord, I Believe" By Jeffrey R. Holland is exactly what Spencer and I needed at exactly this time in our lives. The story of the man with the afflicted son really touched my heart and the part that says "We will be grateful for anything - partial blessing, a glimmer of hope...really touched close to home. I have prayed for something similar and this is where my testimony has strengthened, this is where my tender mercies happen. My prayers are answered and my hope is restored. The adoption process hasn't been the easiest and waiting for our little one to join our family is definitely hard. It's hard for me to talk about because I feel I can never put it in the exact words. I was speaking with my best friend yesterday who adopted a sweet little girl and we both got emotional because we both understand the pain. She said it perfectly when she said it's the unknown. It definitely is. I don't know what the future holds for Spencer and I and that is where our faith comes into play. That is where we need to believe. Besides Spencer, my mom hears me break down more than anyone and my mom is our ROCK! Just yesterday she texted me these: "I pray every day for you and I know a miracle will be in your arms soon. Love you so much!!!!!!!","Well I just know it will happen soon. I have FAITH!!!" Then today I told her about this talk and she replied with, "Oh Jess, Patti emailed that to me yesterday. I know I loved it and its so TRUE!!" My mom is constantly telling us to not doubt and to have faith...moms sure do know best. I am so grateful we had an opportunity to listen to this General Conference. I had such a strong feeling that there was a talk that we needed to hear and I'm glad we had that opportunity. Spencer and I are going to continue to hope on and journey on :)

Happy Anniversary!!

This week Spencer and I celebrated our 7th anniversary! We both took time off work. It was much needed time to just be together. We had a lot of fun. We have been through a lot these last 7 years and it is neat to see how much our love has grown. Heavenly Father definitely knew what we both needed :)

 

(7 years ago we both said "Yes" in the Salt Lake Temple. Here is a picture of flowers Spencer got me. He got me some spring flowers on Saturday and then added 2 dozen roses to it on our anniversary. The picture of us is after our date on our anniversary, fun times!!)

 

 

 

I thought I would update on what we have been up to lately...

Spencer is in school full time and working part time. He amazes me because he works so hard and loves it. He loves doing all this for our future. His work is going well...so well that they have big plans in store for him. It is something we are definitely praying about.

I am working 3 days a week as an RN. It is nice to have days off after my old job as Director of Nursing. Spencer and I are also Beachbody coaches and love being apart of their program. We definitely believe in it and it's not bad side money. We started one of their workout programs, Les Mills Pump, 6 weeks ago and we love it!! It has been so much fun :)! We have also been blessed to become debt free other than our home :).

Sometimes it is hard to blog because there are so many things I want to say, but just cannot put it into words. The adoption process has been hard. It is hard to be waiting...waiting for our family. My family was down a couple weeks ago and I had a sweet, tender mercy happen. In tears, I shared it with Spencer, but once I saw my mom, I knew I just had to tell her. She got in the truck with me and Spencer and I just broke down as I told her. She as well broke down. She knows more than anyone how hard this road has been on us. Sometimes we just need someone to listen and not judge. This is definitely a roller coaster ride. I know I've said it before, but man, it is so true. We have good days, really good days, and not so good days. We are grateful for faith, the power of prayer and fasting, and the adoption process. It may be hard, but it is making us stronger as a couple and will make us an even stronger family :).

I love you every step of the way!!

I love spending time with Spencer!! He is my world! I will say it over and over again because I truly feel this way! We have so much fun laughing and just enjoying each other!! I sure love him!